Turning to You

Is probably not the best choice, since it is usually me writing to myself, however this is some type of a journal, and people journal about their joys and sorrows, correct?

I am not one that loves to complain, in fact that is a work in progress for me. Anyhow, Husband and I have had a rough time this last year. If you want to know the story ask me, however it cannot be much different than others that I have heard and read about. Life is full of adventures, mishaps and decisions. One decision that Husband and I have hit at a crossroads, is jobs. I need a job. I have been looking with all of my puny might to find a job- at a salon, at an office to be a secretary. I have had several interviews and all of which have landed me in the same spot.

Except for one. Yesterday I was offered a position as a stylist in a wonderful salon where the people are experienced and they have the most amazing abilities. I want to learn and grow from them, however I am not sure if I am able to make the commitment. I would owe nothing to the salon owners but I would be required to bring in new client el. Bringing in client el would be my job. If you know me, I get easily annoyed when others try to push their ideas or agendas on me, so why would I become one of those salon stylists who pushes? That is not me.

So, would I be giving up my personal principles to gain a possibly adventurous and unsure career? Or do I go to Supercuts where I know I will get paid really well, but I will completely miserable? Mind you, Husband and I have quite a bit to pay off and the faster the money flows in the better. It does not help that we have a child, this makes everything more complicated-as in, I do not want to leave her! She has become such a large part of my life, God has taught me so much through her beauty and innocence.

I started hair school, finished because I believed in a vision. I believed in reaching out to people while doing their hair. I had a wonderful time as a stylist and completely enjoyed encouraging others and listening to their stories. I truly believe in the power of listening!

Two projects that have been on my mind lately-Number one, I would LOVE to go to cities where major disasters have stricken and lend a hand-or a shear...I would love to reach out by helping clean up the people, give them haircuts and head massages, enable men to shave if they want and style women hair. Perhaps this sounds vain, however I know that after a long mission trip I felt gross after not taking a shower in days and being exhausted. I cannot imagine how people who have survived tragedy by storms and earthquakes must feel not having a home or much means of making them feel and look "human" again.

Secondly, it has been on my heart to write a book about how beauty is perceived in society today and how we can become more beautiful from the inside out with a God who loves and cherishes us. Part of this book would include ways to love our God and therefore ourselves more-mind and BODY. Husband was telling me a story the other day about a friend of his who lost a large sum of weight. Husband asked this man "How did you do this? Was this not difficult?" The man replied with "I realized that after eating whatever I wanted and not taking care of my body at all that I was not serving God. I was not treating my body as God's temple. Cherishing and grooming and feeding it the way it needed to be." That hit me! We are so struck on hot or cold. I.e. We either starve ourselves and deny anything that is good or we allow everything "good" and have no ability to say no when no needs to be said. It is about balance, not about one without the other!

These are all ramblings, I am sure I am the only one who reads this, however God hears my thoughts and I am sure He is reading this as I write it. Oh thank you Lord for loving such a person as me.

Lastly, if I have wronged you, if I have offended you or caused you to stumble, please forgive me. If you would like to chat, e-mail me at michellegraves6@gmail.com and we can go have a cup of tea!

Blessings